Odds are, you’d much prefer that you were a more disciplined, organized, and committed person, rather than simply having an environment that restricts you. This is the difference between an adult who makes decisions for themselves, versus a child who has to be told what to do by their parents.
Life is much better when we can act powerfully on our decisions, rather than succumbing to our whims.
So work on you! Take the time to improve you—books, seminars, meditation, the guidance of a coach—and to be your best self. You owe it to you.